In a about 90 days, Annie and I will be divorced. Also, I had to resign my job at Holladay UCC. On a lighter note, my car's not working.
Here's more explanation:
In early April, Annie and I separated. In the time between then and now, I've run the gamut of emotions and possible decisions. I went from desperately wanting to be back with her, to suspecting that I would be better off without our relationship. I eventually had to come to the hard decision that I had no other choice but to divorce Annie. The way I was being treated in the relationship was at best unfair and at worst abusive. I felt I would never be forgiven for my failings and felt no where near being unconditionally loved. And I don't want to live life that way.
Once the divorce is final, I'll lose the health benefits I get through Annie's job. So I had to find a new job--one with health insurance. Luckily, I've found one! I started last week and the job is providing direct support for three great guys in a group home. The bummer part is that the pay is scarcely more than minimum wage. But I've already been encouraged to apply for a better job in the company, so who knows?
I've been living with my parents ever since the April split. And since my financial and medical future is so uncertain, I may be with them quite a while longer. I'd complain about this, but it actually hasn't been so bad. When I showed up crying on their doorstep, they accepted me with no questions asked, and since then they've shown the utmost concern and care for me. One thing this whole mess has taught me is that I have wonderful family and friends who have been there for me whenever I've asked. Thank you so much to everyone who's supported me!
Now that things are official, I've been getting a lot of sympathy about the divorce. And don't get me wrong, it still pretty much sucks to be me. But I feel better now than I have in a very long time. Now that I know what's going to happen, I can feel hopeful about it. In fact, my plan is to use my new found freedom attend seminary somewhere next year! The challenge will be figuring out how to go to school and have health insurance at the same time. I'm thinking about going to school in Canada!
So, that's the short version of my life at this time. I've never experienced this much change, stress, depression, and out-right bad luck all at the same time like right now. But it's already grown me as a person and I'm trusting that God is letting all this happen for a reason. Thank you again so much to everyone who has been so good to me (you all know who you are, hopefully!).
Oh, and the car thing is a bad transmission, maybe.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Best Easter Ever! b-besides the first one...
Last Sunday was, I think, the best Easter I have ever experienced. I thought it was worth recording here.
My beautiful wife Annie and I started the day off with chocolate-chocolate donuts and coffee from 7-11. Chocolate-chocolate donuts are sort of a tradition for us, since they are Annie's first and best memory of Easter. I felt bad for the crazy lady who rung us up since she had to work on Easter, but felt less bad when she didn't give me change back for my ten dollar bill.
That was before sunrise. Next we went to our (still relatively) new church for a sunrise service. We underestimated how cold it would be and stood outside in the church's garden shivering with only our 7-11 coffee to keep us warm. The "Greenskeeper" (one of the nicknames we have for people who's names we can't remember) made an environmental announcement because, "I'm not allowed to during the other services." We think he's controlling killer robots through wind power.
The service was very short but very nice. Our new pastor is great. We all put flowers into a chicken-wire encased cross, and the very old gentleman we like so much put his in upside down. He also took several pictures.
We talked with Carey about going to church and being an engineer, and he was nice enough to ask us about ourselves in depth. Then we left, being to full of chocolate donut to partake in the pancake breakfast.
Before our next event, we drove around until it got warm. We drove past what was once Cottonwood mall, but it now being destroyed. There's something undeniably awesome about seeing half a building - floors ending in a mess of the inside stuff of walls and ceilings.
Finally it was warm enough to start our new adventure: disc golfing! I had no idea I could enjoy something associated with golf so much! We were terrible, but had the time of our life. We saw a guy get a hole in one over a water hazard. We saw the frost on the ground disappear, holding onto to life in the shadows of trees. And Annie spent as much time as she could watching a squirrel jump from tree to tree.
Exhausted in such a good way, we went on to JB's to have breakfast brunch. We gave our waitress a fat tip for serving us on Easter.
By the time we were done, it was not even noon yet! So much fun, and we still had most of the day to ourselves. Until 5, we just sat around - me playing video games, and Annie reading and napping. When Annie woke up, I amused her with all the different costumes of Kirby.
We went to my aunt's house for dinner with my family. We played Apples to Apples and Cranium, busting up at my dad's attempt to whistle "Wild Thing" while laughing.
It was as near to a perfect day as I can imagine. Thanks, Jesus!
My beautiful wife Annie and I started the day off with chocolate-chocolate donuts and coffee from 7-11. Chocolate-chocolate donuts are sort of a tradition for us, since they are Annie's first and best memory of Easter. I felt bad for the crazy lady who rung us up since she had to work on Easter, but felt less bad when she didn't give me change back for my ten dollar bill.
That was before sunrise. Next we went to our (still relatively) new church for a sunrise service. We underestimated how cold it would be and stood outside in the church's garden shivering with only our 7-11 coffee to keep us warm. The "Greenskeeper" (one of the nicknames we have for people who's names we can't remember) made an environmental announcement because, "I'm not allowed to during the other services." We think he's controlling killer robots through wind power.
The service was very short but very nice. Our new pastor is great. We all put flowers into a chicken-wire encased cross, and the very old gentleman we like so much put his in upside down. He also took several pictures.
We talked with Carey about going to church and being an engineer, and he was nice enough to ask us about ourselves in depth. Then we left, being to full of chocolate donut to partake in the pancake breakfast.
Before our next event, we drove around until it got warm. We drove past what was once Cottonwood mall, but it now being destroyed. There's something undeniably awesome about seeing half a building - floors ending in a mess of the inside stuff of walls and ceilings.
Finally it was warm enough to start our new adventure: disc golfing! I had no idea I could enjoy something associated with golf so much! We were terrible, but had the time of our life. We saw a guy get a hole in one over a water hazard. We saw the frost on the ground disappear, holding onto to life in the shadows of trees. And Annie spent as much time as she could watching a squirrel jump from tree to tree.
Exhausted in such a good way, we went on to JB's to have breakfast brunch. We gave our waitress a fat tip for serving us on Easter.
By the time we were done, it was not even noon yet! So much fun, and we still had most of the day to ourselves. Until 5, we just sat around - me playing video games, and Annie reading and napping. When Annie woke up, I amused her with all the different costumes of Kirby.
We went to my aunt's house for dinner with my family. We played Apples to Apples and Cranium, busting up at my dad's attempt to whistle "Wild Thing" while laughing.
It was as near to a perfect day as I can imagine. Thanks, Jesus!
Monday, March 10, 2008
my wife just said the most awesome thing
Here is a lesson
You have to learn
Don't trust guys in masks
But take all you can.
(to the tune of "Desert Music in Super Mario 2")
Monday, March 3, 2008
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